Blue Friday

I had bad news this week, I've spent the last two days crying on and off.  My sister that is my best friend has cancer.  She has been in pain for a week.  She went to the hospital last week and they told her she was constipated and gave her a bottle of stuff to clean her out and sent her home.  I thought it was her gall bladder because she was having the same symptoms I had when mine went bad.  But, no, she has lymphoma, we don't know what kind yet but we know she has several tumors which were causing her pain. 



We want so bad to go to the hospital and see that first doctor she saw and rub her face in it.  She sent her home with a totally wrong diagnosis.  I've already lost one sister two years ago and I am not ready to lose another.  She has more tests to run before we'll know exactly what they are going to do and to find out if surgery and or what treatment they will do.  She is my best friend, we do everything together, we hike, we camp, literally everything.



On the other hand, my 17 year old niece is driving me crazy.  She has a mild form of cerebral palsey, she is a bit slow in learning and has a problem reading.  She wants a drivers liscence but can't perform a small thing like keep her room clean.  She went to a party on Sat. night at a friends house and was supposed to go to church with my sister in the morning.  She had planned to pick her up.  Apparently she decided to go to church with her friends instead and didn't let us know.  She didn't come home until 3 pm on Sunday.  She never told us where she was, we thought she was with my sister.  I told her she's not responsible enough for a car.  It is common courtesy to at least let us know where she is.  Then yesterday she comes home from school in a bad mood and pops off: When can I get birth control?  She's nowhere, noway, ready to be having sex, period.  She wants to quit school, she turns 18 next month and doesn't graduate until May.  She's only graduating because of the "No Child Left Behind".  She is way under normal on the AIMS testing, she flunked the whole thing but will graduate.  She thinks she can go to college but can't read to do anything about it.  We aren't going to be there for her forever.  She gets disability and when she graduates shw will lose her dad's ssi so at that time can get a job but doesn't want to work at a grocery store or fast food.  I figure she'll get pissed off and move out soon after she graduates.  When she came home late on Sunday she told me:  I'm almost 18 I can do what I want.  Yay, my inherited kid from hell....  But, normally, she's a great kid, it's just once in a while that she does these totally STUPID things or the STUPID things pop out of her mouth.